A Silence Song

So much silence
Stretching above me
Around me too
Has it deafened me?
Has it closed my ears?
Has the silence itself
Brought about this rapture?
Between silence and sound
Between the cry and the cull
If man raises one voice
I'll raise two then
One for loss
One for losing
One for death
And one for birth

He may hang bloodytorn
On this tree of moss
Though my grimace
Will cut my grin
I'll rise triumphant
I'll rise triumphing
You won't catch me
I fly unseen
Through the wind of the worlds
Missiles cut space
Spearing the starlight
Masking the moon
Wide of the march

Give me two reasons to stay here
Lostlight lostlove
Smudge the tracks
And smother the traces
Of the fires of your fear

Near the
Under the
Beside the
Beyond the flowers
Then further still
The children lie
In silent space
The wind shivers through
Their cornburnt hair

Silence immaculate
If they move
From silence to sound
Will the world shudder
Will my heart stop
In a cave
In a maze
The spring slides
Through my sadness
And my winter

(The stars have frozen into space)
(The stars have molten into space)

The children wait
Flowers around
Burnish their hair
With brazen gold
And heartred rose
If I move
Then I shall stop
(How have the sightless fallen)
I'll take a knife to your heart
I'll take a knife to your...
I'll take a knife to your...
(London Bridge no longer remains;
Christ's face refracted through
The sky then breaks up into
Different shapes...)

Hear: Current 93 - A Silence Song

Hate

Why the hate exists?
Why love too?
What are the Emotions?
There are so many kinds of them,
Affection,Anger,Annoyance,Angst,
Apathy,Anxiety,Awe,Boredom,
Compassion,Contempt,Curiosity,
Depression,Desire,Despair,
Disappointment,Disgust,Ecstasy,
Empathy,Envy,Embarrassment,
Euphoria,Fear,Frustration,Gratitude,Grief,Guilt,Happiness,Hatred,Hope,
Horror,Hostility,Hysteria,Jealousy,Joy,Loathing,Love,Lust,Misery,Pity,Pride,
Rage,Regret,Remorse,Sadness,Shame,Suffering,Surprise,Wonder,Worry..
Why do we feel emotions?
According James-Lange theory, emotions serve to explain and organize our own actions to us. It's a way that our "system" has, to inform us what we do right and what wrong. If something doesn't seem to agree with our desire, our emotions will let us know it by, hating, crying, feel depression, etc... But if something identifies our desire we feel love, happiness, joy and the rest of the nice emotions.
But how we should know which of these emotions are the good ones?
I mean why Love is a beautiful emotion and hate isn't?
Who will determine that? How do we know that the earth's position is upside and not the other way?

See/hear...
Boyd Rice - Love
Boyd Rice - Hatesville

Something about NOTHING

The universe is made of nothing. So are we.
Nothing existed before the space or time.
There was nothing out there.
Then a sparkle came up and gave birth to everything…
Why? Where was that match before? Nowhere I suppose… Who was there to light it? None I assume… How then??? How???
People spent lifetimes to find it out, I can’t solve this riddle even if I spent mine too…
Still, if we accept the fact that someone has been there, there is no point for anything…
All started from nothing, even the materials for the planets, the comets, the suns, the star clusters, the galaxies… and so on. Even we are. We are made of nothing too…
Our bodies are made with materials such as the celestial pieces I mentioned before.
So where is the point?
Nothing => Galaxies => Us
Why then we spent our lives making them meaningless?
Money, Sex, Wars, Deaths, Suicides, Murders, Work, Beauty, Love, Hate, Relationships, Families, Betrayals, Heartaches, Divorces, etc?
Why can’t we get along? We are nothing remember…?
What’s the point to cry or begging or loving your partner?
We are all going to die anyway…
Why to live in the first time? Who light the match? God?
Where was he before, if nothing existed?
Why did he produce the spark? He didn’t know what will happen?
Yea I know… its people’s fault, because Adam ate the apple…. Hmmm… ok mommy nice story, I’ll go to sleep now….
He started everything and he didn’t notice that he’s creations where flawed? Or he saw that after and he was too tired to fix them?
Maybe it’s something like nature-recycling procedure…
There is too many of nothing material that something must die so it can expand…
Are we like a bottle of plastic, which we will throw it for recycle and smelt it into a new one?
Will we ever find answers in those questions? Or we have to believe, no matter what?
And if we believe in some of these theories, what we will have for result?
No more deaths or wars or lies?
There is one answer for sure… The whole universe is made of nothing and that makes us too small to believe that we are something…

Introduction

...while the earth, suspended in air, stood firmly at the center of the universe that God had created out of nothingness..

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